august 16, 2011
there is a fire helicopter outside, close, circling our area right now. i wonder if it is sucking up water from the lake? i don’t see a bucket hanging down. this is the time of year that we watch and pay attention – fires can be so devastating. a little distraction as i sit down to blog this morning.
terry turns 65 today. how did we get to be that old? i guess that is what everyone thinks at this stage of the game. our bodies are aging but our minds just can’t seem to grasp that we have lived so long and are on the other end of our life span.
truthfully, i do not want to live to be “old.” there comes a point where quality of life just doesn’t seem to be worth it. on the other hand, God is control and He who made me numbered my days before i was born. therefore, i need to remember to make every day count and pray that habits i continue to develop now will stay with me as i age. of course, if that is true, they had better be good habits!
it hurts my heart that terry’s mom, at 90, no longer has any interest in reading her bible. she won’t say that it is because she can’t see the words or because she can’t focus on the thoughts. she just doesn’t even pick it up. she has always been so faithful to study and eager to grow in God’s word that i have to trust there is something there that she just won’t put into words. at least i can be confident that God knows her heart. it is so hard for her to just sit and be every day. she is in some pain from her arthritis and can’t move around much. her pain meds make her sleepy most of the time. why is she still here? what plan does God have for at this time?
on a more upbeat note, it is going to be a lovely day today, with temperatures in the low 90′s, after a cool night. we are having a very impromptu and casual gathering of friends and families tonight to celebrate terry’s birthday. thirty or so of all ages, eating burgers and sitting around outside talking and playing. i love that the kids come and just get lost on the property, running and screaming and hunting for treasures. it was terry’s choice to do this rather than dinner out with a few friends and i am glad to do my part. the macaroni salad is made, veggies are cut up, drinks are in the cooler ready for ice to be added. the deck isn’t done but there is no reason to wait for that to happen before we party.
the only ingredient missing is family. and so i knit. socks for the next sock club offering, sweaters for christmas presents, and projects for upcoming classes. it keeps my hands and my mind busy when i need to rest or in the evening while sports of some sort are on tv. i am thankful for this pleasure and the way it fills a need in me to be practical and busy.
